There is not a chance I ever thought I’d be writing this as my ordinary moments for this week. I thought we’d have already had several days as a family of four, and that is what I’d be sharing.
But no, baby isn’t quite ready and instead I’m writing this at 9 days past due date!
This baby has now surpassed Ella for days past due date, with Ella being born 8 days after. I’ve gone through a range of emotions over the past few weeks, but unfortunately the overriding one seems to be frustration.
I wrote earlier this week about choosing positivity and accepting that baby will come when it’s ready, but then the hormones take over.
In fact, many of my tears over the past few days have been due to a feeling that I’m letting people down. Deep down, I know there is nothing I can do to get this baby out before it’s ready. I’ve tried all the usual stuff, and still no movement. But I feel there’s more than just me waiting on this baby, and then somehow I end up feeling awful that I’m clinging on to it! Mad I know. Hormones for you!
We now have a date for induction. While it’s something I’d really rather avoid, it does at least give us a day to focus on, by which we know that we’ll have a baby one way or another. And each day brings us another day closer to that.
One of the biggest frustrations has been the Braxton Hicks. I didn’t have any with Ella. This time round I’ve been having them for weeks. At 39 weeks, I was sure I was in labour. I had a strong, painful contraction and was ready to start timing them. I’ve even had a few of them occurring at regular intervals. Every time, part of me thinks ‘this is it’. Then they come to nothing! The biggest teasers of the pregnancy world!
I also seem to assume that I’m only likely to go in to labour naturally at nighttime. I wake up disappointed that I’ve gone another night without going in to labour, and that I’ll have to wait til that night in the hope of it happening!
So, for now, it’s focusing on that induction date, with anything before it being a bonus. With lots of walks before then to try and get things moving!
Rest assured that this time next week, there will be a baby related ordinary moment!!!